Reflections on the Life of Moses (1)

Amazingly Inadequate (Exodus 1 - 6)

Do you ever feel alone in your inadequacy? Do you ever wonder if you are the only one who struggles with feeling like you are not enough? As I read the beginning chapters of Exodus this past week, I was once again surprised about how Moses, this great leader of Israel, came across as so insecure and I guess... so normal. Check out a few verses that highlight how Moses wrestled with feelings of inadequacy:

But Moses said to God, "Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?" (3:11)

Moses said to the LORD, "Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue" (4:10)

But Moses said, "Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else." (4:13)

But Moses said to the LORD, "If the Israelites will not listen to me, why would Pharaoh listen to me, since I speak with faltering lips?" (6:12)

Wow... can you feel Moses' struggle? He was fighting a real battle with God about who he saw himself to be. And honestly, this encourages me to know that I'm not alone in my struggle with fear and inadequacy. Throughout my life, I have struggled greatly with things similar to what Moses struggled with... like speaking in front of people.

I remember how in high school I put off speech class to the final semester because I was so scared to get up in front of people. I got so unbelievably nervous weeks before I had to give a speech. This struggle continued on in college, and I often found myself running away from opportunities that included public speaking. But as God's call on my life began to unfold, it became harder to avoid getting up in front of people! And over time, even though I still feel greatly inadequate when speaking in front of people, God has shown me that His promises to Moses are true. God "will be with me" (3:12) and He will "help me to speak and will teach me what to say" (4:12). So yes, my fear and anxiety has decreased over time. But it is because I've experienced God's faithfulness and presence in those moments of inadequacy which spurs me on to trust God more fully in future situations.

So how about you? Do you ever feel inadequate and overwhelmed with the circumstances and life God has called you to? Do you find yourself thinking...

"Who am I"... OR

"God, I am not ____"... OR

"Lord, please send someone else!"

The cool thing is that God calls and uses those of us who are inadequate and weak. He wants to demonstrate that his "power is made perfect in weakness" (2 Corinthians 12:9). So don't run away from your inadequacy, but instead, come honestly before your Maker with these struggles. He's ready and waiting to embrace you in all your inadequacy with His Power and Presence. I pray that you will experience God's faithfulness as I have and will know that He wants to use you not in spite of, but because of your weaknesses...

Thoughts? Comments?